Some days really rock you. I mean, when it comes to being true to who you are, there are always battles. It should be easy being you but it most definitely is not. One second you feel like you own the world then the next you come crashing down to the lowest of lows. The list of challenges are never ending and your faith… not always a constant. It’s almost like life’s main purpose is to torment you again and again until you break.
There’s no manual on how to go about living. No one telling you what’s right or wrong and if there is it’s all relative opinions. When you’re young, there is this false illusion that if you follow certain rules set by the all knowing you’ll be golden. Then, with age, these all knowing and their creeds slowly start to dissipate from invincible walls to the smallest remains of what you thought would always be. Watching this all happen right in front you kind of freaks you out. Takes your feet out from below.
Expectations and pressure plague your mind. Friends with drug addictions, lost and parasitic. Tears trail the length of your face, memories flash in and out thinking of them at their purest and how nothing but a silhouette remains. You believe in them, giving all of your being, but they are someplace else. In there eyes, your friendship becomes a means to consuming in one-way or another. Then you have to let go before they suck you dry of your light. Besides them, you’ve got your own hell of a time resisting this lifestyle. Seems like you look around and its all you see. You just want to be clean. Just want to be.
Depression and debt cloud your family life. Moms and dads hating each other. Tug-o-war and you’re the rope. You do everything to keep the peace but peace can only last for so long. Parents ditching out for new lovers. Little siblings looking to you for answers and you try to cover your cracks of imperfection. Money flows but how do you manage it.. Save for some other day or treat yourself? Looking at your love life, trying to find someone who’ll always have your back wondering do they even exist. Then you do find someone but those oh so great problems are quick to arise. Fighting, jealousies, sex, trust; I’m sure you can relate. Even the clothes you decide to wear, your expression. It’s one of the greatest ways to be you but those looks of disapproval can make you doubt yourself instantly.
These descriptions are few compared to the many I could write about. It is crucial, however, that you believe in yourself. We need individuals that would prefer to create their world and create it with an acceptance and respect for others. The most important thing is to stand for something. So many people could care less about the future or anyone else but themselves. These people would rather go get faded and kick it with their friends. This paradigm is rapidly spreading to the masses. Kids just want and they want it now. It’s always how can you serve them; no one wants to be of service. Most people don’t even know why they’re at school or what they’re working towards. The aspiration to make this world a better more loving place is amongst the few. We have to work to create a united people, united and standing for something good. And with all that said.. “Remember to always be true, no matter what you do” -the Guru, R.I.P